Life just couldn't get much better!!! I love love love my life and my family!!!
I think spring has finally sprung!!!! It is beautiful outside everything is turning green and the flowers are starting to bloom but only one real complaint........the wind won't quit blowing!!!! Sunday morning Kelly and I went for a flight in the RV, the weather was so nice the air was really calm but it has been about 2 years since i had been up in the plane and when he did his wave and the roll i got somewhat sick to my stomach.........well heck, it's not like i do that every week!!! However i was a trooper and didn't peuk until we got back on the ground!!!! lol The best part was just spending quality time together, the only way it could have been better is if our puppies had been with us!!
One year ago today i started on this weight loss journey, needless to say it has been the best decision that i have ever made. I can't begin to describe how good i feel, how much more energy i have and what it has done for my self esteem 60 pounds and 38 inches later i feel like a new person. Years ago i had lost a lot of weight and the attention that it got me was more than i could handle, going from chubby to thin is a very emotional ordeal and if you can't mentally handle its not going to work for you.......it didn't for me. This time around i was ready. The year prior to me starting this journey i had lost my mom, my best friend and the one person i could always count on to be on my side. Kelly (my husband) and i were dealing with the every day life issues of kids, businesses, health......blah blah blah. I just go so caught up in the every day routine that i had quit taking care of myself. 10 years of marriage and 40 more lbs. i was in a downhill spiral. It was time to take charge. Here i am a year later and feeling better than ever!!!! It's my life my destiny and i am in charge!!
today has been such a fun day at the store!!! we got some of our work done and now we are learning to use a new app called Blogsy to post from our ipads!! we have been wanting to be able to do this more efficiently since neither one of us brings our computers with us anymore. if we could get this down to a science you will be hearing a lot more from us........and i will blog alot more on my personal blog!!!
Although it is Superbowl Sunday i cannot say it is a "Super" Sunday.......... It was 2 years, 730 days ago today that i said "goodbye" to my mom, and still with a heavy heart i miss her as much today as i did a year ago. Along with all the wonderful times these last 2 years there has been a lot of heartache, and missing my mom still hasn't gotten any easier.
People always say you should focus on the 'positive" and not the "negative" but today is going to be a day that my dear friend Karie and i will share forever, see, her beautiful, talented, athletic,kind, loving son Jeremy has gone to be with the Lord. Jeremy was in a car accident several years ago and since his accident has been in a care facility. 3 weeks ago he became very ill, full of infection, mersa, and pneumonia.....the probability for Jeremy to fight all of this was not good and the doctors suggested it was time to not make Jeremy fight anymore.....can you even imagine what Karie and Kenny have gone thru? What that continue to go thru? Or how heavy their hearts have been through all of this? Well, after the decision to not make Jeremy fight any more he was given comfort measures and sent home to spend his final days surrounded by his family..........Jeremy held on for 18 more days and daily everyone wondered what was keeping him here, what was making him hold on, what was making him so strong...........today we got our answer, he was waiting for Superbowl Sunday!!!!! You see, Jeremy was the star of the Lighthouse Christian football team, scored the first touchdown on the Lions new football field, holds the record for scoring the most points, Jeremy was a star, Jeremy was blessed.....Jeremy was an inspiration and mentor to many of the younger kids at Lighthouse and most of all Jeremy loved the Lord and now he has gone to be with him. It has been a very emotional day and a day we will never forget, but for Karie and I today will also be a day of peace, as now two of our dear loved ones are free of pain and suffering and finally at rest. I guess all in all today can be a "Super" Sunday.
How does time fly so fast? Is it because we are having so much fun or is it because there is really not 24 hours in a day anymore? I have to believe that with our ever changing world that the days, the months, the years have gotten a lot shorter......its my story and i am goin with that!! 2012 has been quite the year, In March Kelly and I went to Las Vegas then we went back to Vegas in April and we went to Montana in July, Kelsie got married in July........blah blah blah. Oh and to date i have lost 53 lbs, so all in all its been a great year!! I will really write you a post on New Years Day with all the details of the past year but until then lets get ready for Christmas and make this the best year ever!!
It was a year ago today at 7:30 am that i said "goodbye" to my best friend. 365 days, 52 weeks, 12 months, 17,271 hours. i don't think that i am any different or that it hurts any more for me than anyone else, i think the hardest part is being an only child and not having any one person to talk to our "mom" about. Right up to the very end mmy mom still had her wit and sense of humor, her positive outlook and her will to live like no other. My mom NEVER complained about anything, i remember saying to my mom while she was in ICU "mom, if you are in pain you need to say so, so they can give you something so your blood pressure stays down." and her response to me was "honey, i need to feel a little pain, it makes you stronger"
I'm not sure the pain i have felt this past year has made me any stronger!! Without a shadow of a doubt i know that without my husband, soul mate, rock, love of my life, and best friend Kelly i would have never gotten through this rough time, he has held me every step of the way and wiped away more tears than you could ever imagine. I love this man so much.........heck i won't go to Paris only because i cant be away from him that long!!
And then there has been all of my friends who through every yard sale, estate sale, auction, cleaning, packing, moving, memories, tears..........how will i ever be able to repay each and every one of you for everything you have done?
And to my sweet daughter Kelsie, thank you for needing me, i will always be here for you, we will be best friends forever!
I just hope that each and every one of you know how much i love you. Thank you for helping me make it through each day,
Wow, what a year!!! I don't even know if there is a good place to start other than with...... "Where in the world did the last 365 days go?" I can't ever remember a year going by so fast!! So where do I start? January started out full steam ahead getting the books for both companies closed out and to the accountant, that is always such a relief when they leave my hands and are passed on!! As we got closer to the end of the month and Michele and I prepared to go to CHA on our annual buying trip, that was when my world fell completely apart... My mom was admitted to the hospital. February 3rd after 10 days in the hospital my mom passed. I know she is in a better place but it doesn't make it any easier. I can honestly say I really don't remember much about the next two months. In
April, Michele and I went to Spokane to go to Farm Chicks.....this has always been one of my bucket list dreams. We had a great time but it really wasn't what I expected and I thought about my mom and all of our antiquing trip the whole time we were there. It was a good trip but disappointing!! The next 6 months were spent going thru moms house and getting it ready....bittersweet, so hard to know what to do, memories upon memories I sifted thru alone something I had to do as know one else would ever know what I wanted to keep and what I didn't!! I didn't want to rush the process but I didn't want to keeping going back to her empty house,
my mom, my best friend, the one person who never judged me always loved me and was on my side no matter what!! In May Kelsie moved out and broke our hearts!! You know 18 years old and knows everything!! Her dad and I were so hurt and disappointed! Once empty nesters, Kelly and I spent a lot of time together, just the two of us!! We spent many of summer nights out flying. While he flew his plane I got caught up on all my magazines and
cookbooks......loved the time together!! Fall, my favorite time of the year.....Michele ,Sherri and I went to The Creative Connection and the Junk Bonanza in Minneapolis. I have to say besides the trip with Kelly to
Montana that was absolutely the highlight of my year!! We met up with ladies that I had met at other events and all of us had such a great time together!! I can hardly wait to go back!! After 2 garage sales and an estate sale we said goodbye to the rest of moms things with an auction.....something I will regret the rest of my life. The sale was horrible the prices her beautiful things brought was pathetic but in my heart
I know mom knows I did it as a last resort and I did my best prior to honor her! Christmas was good, loved putting out all the decorations, even got the outside ones up this year, got to do a lot of cooking and
baking, lots of holiday parties, created so many fun things at the store and had
so many fun classes with friends. Loved having
family here, there was just one seat that was empty. It was a difficult year but
I really have so much to be grateful for, I
will never be able to thank all my wonderful friends and family who held my hand and assured
me things would be ok....my rock, my husband, my best friend....Kelly thank you. Michele, Elizabeth, Audrey,Neva,Jeannie,kelsie,Wendy,Jann,Jackie,Judy,Vicki, Sherri, George......omg, who am I missing there were so any of you, thank you for all your love and support, I wouldn't have made it without you!! God Bless.
P.S. Did i fail to mention that we also went to Disneyland for Brittanie's cheer competition, had a big Creative Journey Event at the store, and had a girls weekend to celebrate birthdays in Utah, and camped this year!! WOW, i wonder what i did in my spare time? IRONED CLOTHES!!!!
I have been so naughty not keeping up on my blog, you see since i got my Ipad i keep to journals going and it is all i can do to keep up on that!! i decided to help me with the loss of my mom i should journal like i am talking to her......hmmm don't know that that is helping much, it makes me cry every day!! I had decided to get up every morning at 7am. no matter what so that i could be out of the house no later than 9am and at Zulus so that i could have my morning coffee and journal, i make it about twice a week and the other days i run errands in the morning!! Busy, busy, busy no different than any one else i guess!! So back to being naughty, i guess that is why with two other journals i have fallen down on this one!!
We have been so busy at the store and our Creative Journey weekend was so much fun! We got a new line of candles in the store called "The Cheerful Giver" really nice candles and wonderful fragrances and the we also got our delicious caramels back in stock!! There is so much new product in the store that its hard to decide what to play with! I made this amazing jewelry box out of a heart shape candy box and i can hardly wait to teach this class!! Michele did this incredible and i mean incredible 7 gypsies drawer box with the collector sticker.......definitely one of my all time favorites, and our new line of wood letters, well the font is so cute that these letters are hard to keep in stock!!
Its been another tough week!!! Always after getting back from a trip there is so much to do!! I don't think i have quit doing laundry for 6 days, and between laundry i have been putting away little piles around the house, changing winter clothes for summer clothes and the thing i dread the most.............paper work!!! Now if it were the kind with beautiful colorful scrapbook paper.....that i wouldn't mind!!
And of course being in California made me really miss my mom, she loved going to the antique shops in Old Orange and her favorite ride at Disneyland was "Its a Small World" so being there sparked a lot of sweet memories of things we did together. Despite missing my mom I have found a new way to just let go and relax!!!!!! After having our deck built around our hot tub 6 years ago, Kelly finally got the tub up and running and so every night we go sit in it together and just relax!!!! Now we both want one with more jets!! Its wonderful!!! I don't have a picture of the hot tub but i do have a picture of my other therapeutic toy that seems to take the stress of daily life and cares away!!! Her name is Bella, she is just what the doctor ordered!!